I'm like that. But the other day I saw the following excerpt of a letter posted on the wall of someone I consider a true artist. Every word struck true; I know intimately the "queer, divine dissatisfaction" of which she speaks. Do you?
I find this quote very inspirational and it's going to help me to continue to write and to post the two fics I'm working on. I hope it helps you if you're as hesitant as I am to write and to post.
Edit: Emphasis of what I consider one of the most important parts.Martha Graham to Agnes Demille
There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening
That is translated through you into action
And because there is only one of you in all time
This expression is unique. If you block it
It will never exist through any other medium
and be lost.
The world will not hear it.
It is not your business to determine how good it is;
Nor how valuable it is;
Nor how it compares with other expressions.
It is your business to keep it yours,
clearly and directly,
To keep the channel open.
You do not even have to believe in yourself
or your work.
You have to keep open and aware directly to the urges
that motivate you.
Keep the channel open.
No artist is pleased.
There is no satisfaction whatever at any time.
There is only a queer, divine dissatisfaction,
A blessed unrest that keeps us marching
And makes us more alive than the others.
[Edited on 27/6/2006 by HoodedMan]