Nightscrawlers

I'd forgotten how badly my 'bad days' hurt My own bloody fault but humph. Want hugs but am in too much pain for hugs.

Mom's now going to doctors. Feel drained.

I just got informed that not only did my adopted grandad try to kill himself before he died, but that my adopted mom is very suicidal and thinking seriously about being stupid. normally this wouldn't phase me (beyond the trying to get her to a doc's and sort her out etc and being generally upset) bu...

There will be blood. And Jay will remember that drinking entire bottles of absinthe at a time does not constitute staying conscious.

I am so sad my connection tripped out for this *frownie face*

I'm still alive. Given the sheer mood drop I've had, this is a damn good thing.

D: Poor Adam!! *cuddles*

Awesome instance you too. Lovely and dark

Double post, but hey.

My Intuos4 graphics pad, the love of my artistic life, one of my most prized possessions and something I was using to help me get through all the shit I'm going through at the moment...isn't working.

At all.

So no more drawings, no more colouring, no more Scorpiosis.

Just sat through three solid hours of being psycho-assessed. Still shaking and fidgeting from nerves.

Mrrrrr.

Hey Crash! Good to see you again, though I'm not quite that much of an old hand :D I'm Scummy, AKA Toxic, real name Christian though I'm known to answer to anything come feeding time. I'm 27, nearly 28, currently recovering from a bad turn healthwise so unemployed, though someday I aspire to be an a...

You know, when one is having to deal with flashbacks stemming from violent parents... ...Is already of a nervous disposition because of a recent breakdown... ...Has been within hearing distance of a series of violent riots... ...Being woken up by a couple of guys and a woman screaming at each other ...

So...not only have we not been paid, and are therefore short on rent...

My phone's screwing up, which means that if I need to phone my CPN/treatment team in an emergency? I can't.

...I blame the rioters

Adam's going to love this.

...Just so long as he stays drugged

Awesomely good instance, you too I am LOVING this plot.

Nope. Adam wouldn't do that. He's a bit weird but totally not that kinda guy...

Awesome instance ^^ Nice one, you two. And poor JP

Going for it again, certainly. Can I win this for a third year in a row? Yes I bloody can.

Going to set my sights a little higher, as I seem to overshoot by a hell of a margin. I got to 160k last year, I think...? Can't remember. Going for roughly the same again

Good news: Not only did I meet a fellow WoWer in the assessment, and she was Horde, but I seem to have found a nurse who is taking my wing and helping me fight my corner, as the doctor I saw - after hearing the circumstances, seeing the damage I'd done and the fact I don't feel safe in myself as wel...

...Alright, I'm going to come clean about something. I attempted suicide on Thursday, through trying to slice up my wrists. Obviously, I failed, lacerating the shit out of my arm in the process. I was assessed for a ward over the weekend, but as I had watchers I was deemed alright to be left to them...

In relation to the reason why I may be gone from Monday...

...FML. In total. Absolutely.

May be gone for an unknown amount of time from Monday. I don't know, depends on where I'm going and what the rules are on internet there.

Really, really not liking being alone.

No callback, so no job.

Also, just plain not coping with a few things. Joy.

Grats, Slarti! On both baby-dentures and bosswin :3 *hugs*

...The codeine means I can move again, AND I have a job interview tomorrow!

Go team! Fingers crossed I get it ><

Having to take codeine again and not liking this fact. However...

...Epic instance, you guys. XD Poor Screwball...

The grin! The grin is appropriate! Appropriate monkey!!

OMFG cracking up here guys, awesome, awesome instance!!